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I totally lost a whole week! Have you ever been down a wormhole?  I went down one this week that was waaaaay off course from the journey I have been navigating lately. Somehow, I got caught up in circumstances and similar types of energies in my present, that created an opening into my recent past to exist.  And without much thought, but all good intentions…..I stepped right over the threshold, jumping in with two feet. I slid right into an abandoned life of hopes, fears, hurts, and unfinished memories I consciously left behind not too long ago. It was full of old behavior patterns, limiting beliefs, and unconscious damaging projections. My intentions? Heal and clean and clear this damn thing so I could move on into new situations aligned with my new visions, instead of recreating similar ones I no longer wanted.

The natural environment in this parallel universe was still mind blowing beautiful, nurturing, powerful, and in charge! It was after-all, deep in the belly of the wilds of mama Earth.  What was amazing to me, because I was literally in physical space with that past not just in my mind, is it was exactly the same as when I left it months prior. Unchanged.


 Old trauma patterns played out. {Shocker.} It was painful. And yet, the pain made everything clear. There were new places of light, briefly, that healed the easy stuff. But, when the big, hard, most challenging obstacles surfaced, the healing could only go so far. Truths, vulnerability, compassion, and empathy were not enough to re calibrate and set a new course for this particular ship and its’ crew. 

I left the wormhole, the same way I had before. Except this time, I was stronger. Ties had been successfully cut. No lingering longings or wondering if it was the right thing to do. It didn’t drop me into deep depression or a place of huge self doubt and self judgement. In fact, I barely cried. I didn’t feel like I had been turned inside out to be food for the scavengers. Nope, I just saw it for what it was and the truth in myself I had been working so hard on since May, carried me.

I simply floated away in my boat of new self awareness and confidence knowing my new current path is truly where I need to be. Closure happened. Some healing took place. For that I am forever grateful. I integrated things about myself previously unwilling to accept and acknowledge.  Now, I get to heal as a WHOLE.  I get to change my own patterns I see as destructive and limiting. No more Self sabotage. I realized, as long as those patterns exist and are a driving force in my subconscious, the same experiences will repeat..and never change.

I set out for a new course late Spring. On this new course I will remain.

Luckily it was a quick trip . I Landed back on my current wave/planet right where I had left off. Whew !! I received so many gifts in that time away from time. One of the most important was MEDICINE revealed through nature. A single feather lay on the path being re-trodden. A Great Horned Owl feather. One of great wisdom. Wisdom I will carry with me now. Wisdom that will remind me, to not go down that wormhole again. There was also a small patch of mushrooms surrounding the stump I sat on for contemplation when I felt alone and was unsure if LoVe truly was present. They were shaped like a heart assuring me, I was loved and supported.  These messages from matter what planet, wave, or wormhole you are in or on…are ALWAYS guiding and responding. Spirit and earth work together to plant messages and guideposts for you to see, feel or hear…so you don’t get lost…so you can always find your way back… come home to YOUR SOUL PLANET. Pay attention. The signs are there. Alerting you to your true course. Your true North Node.

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